Unbecoming Her

  • Good at pretending

    EMDR has been making me realize something uncomfortable lately. I’ve always thought I was strong because…

  • I don’t want the money

    I’ve been chasing a relationship with my mom that I’ve only ever imagined. Not one I’ve…

  • What I know

    I didn’t just realize this. I’ve known for a while now. Late 2024 is when it…

  • It all connects

    I thought I was working through separate memories. Different moments, different versions of me, different situations…

  • the day after

    I got a full night of sleep. At least 8 hours.But I woke up with a…

  • the pattern

    We weren’t even talking about her. I went in to process something else…a completely different memory.…

  • the good girl

    I was a good kid. The quiet kind. The one who didn’t cause problems.Who followed directions.Who…

  • Silence was safer

    Growing up, I learned that my voice could get me hurt. That saying the wrong thing…

  • What it taught me

    I’ve been sitting with that memory. Not all at once.Not in a way that feels clear.…

  • The First Locked Door

    My earliest memory isn’t clear in details. It’s clear in feeling. Darkness.A closed door.And the sound…